Friday, June 23, 2017


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, Allah al-Qaabid, al-Baasit, al-Khaafid … 
in the name of Allah the Restricting One, the Extender, the Reducer. 

Ramadhan Kareem 1438 Hijri to my dearest blog visitors and blissful silent readers that never give up to hop in here, even though there’s no latest post updated at all. My bad hehe. May Allah showers His baraqah through this holy month of Ramadhan. Allahumma Amiiin!

Be in the holy month that keep all Muslims awaits patiently, say thanks to Allah … Alhamdulillah thummAlhamdulillah. I guess even the not-yet Muslims does feels the calm atmosphere of this month. Allahu

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Silent … Observe … Brave … Empathy … Rational = SOBER 


SOBER as in other words called clear-headed and restrained. Hey, I’m not going to be an English teacher today; nor I’m capable in doing so, daa~ I’ve been missing the tempo in jotting down one of my ‘thingy’. Concluding the phrases under a form of abbreviation.


A state of keeping the mouth shut literally and keep shutting down to any reaction physically. For all I know, silent is the best treatment when it comes in between situation that hesitates the hearts to take part. Silent always be a winner, either you like it or not.

Say things tend to be misinterpreted by many. Somehow, here comes the idol which done nothing but heals almost everything. Well, the prayer also frequently take place in silent. That’s the prove of a beautiful quotation; “Silence is golden.”


See beneath its beautiful or falsehood. Yes, I illuminate ‘observe’ as simple as that. Use your eyes and heart inside to observe. Pack it up with your rational brain, then you’ll be able to understand what lies beneath everything. Everything you see not exactly shows what its really seems.

What an advantage if someone has this kind of ability in them. Yes, it’s definitely an ability. People used to talk as in giving response by not giving themselves a little pause to put the mind in lucid state. If the reaction is too fast, the shameful appears as fast. Allahu. It’s always us that expose the deficiencies in ourselves. Restrain yourself and observe heartily.


Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of Allah said, “The strong man is not one who is good at wrestling, but the strong man is one who controls himself in a fit of rage.” 
[Al-Bukhari and Muslim].

Why am I stating brave and the act of controlling anger? Brave used to be pair up with the ability to be angry and pump up in loud circumstances. That’s not parallel in Islam which teaches peace and patient.

Brave to speak your principles and mind up. Brave to defend what you should defend. Brave to show how you see the world in your legit perspective even its rare and distinct! In the last phase of the world, as Muslims we need to straight up and behold to what Islam teach us. Brave to the practice and always remember Islam began as something strange and will revert to being strange as it began. 


Oxford dictionary define empathy as 'the ability to understand and share the feelings of another'. Correct! It’s a bless to be able to understand to the extend feels what other feel at the same time. Always put yourself in others shoe to comprehend what you never experienced.

Nowadays, human always compete to be the first, the earliest and the best among all. Sigh. Keeping their mind tangling and questioning, “If I can do it, why can’t you?” MasyaAllah, don’t you realize that your capability is by the will of Allah too. You as in yourself can’t never claim it’s yours anyway. 

What a shame. Make your heart at ease by clearing up the deepest understanding of others. It’s never a waste, trust me!


I guess this words appear once up in the above paragraph. Of course, you need to be rational and sane. Hehe. Insane people not count in any discussion; Islam does not burden them not even with a single sin. Once their sanity vanishes, the responsibility does too. How beautiful Islam’s teaching right? Alhamdulillah. Say thanks to Allah.

This equation ends with rational to keep the stand of how important to manage yourself in rational state. Rational work in a team with good effort and in sha Allah good outcome. Our beloved Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. teaches us this amazing manner to convey in various situation. Not even once, he answers nor response to sahabah’s question in unreasonable circumstance. Sollu ‘alan Nabiy … 

Being SOBER helps to improve ourselves as a good Muslim. In specific; good Malay Modern Muslimah! Yeay. May Allah swt ease and light up our journey. It’s still a long journey ahead. May Allah swt keep His sight upon us. Allahumma Aamiiin.

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We’ve come to the end of exquisite calming Ramadhan season, hoping to see this blissful month again next year! May our deeds in this Ramadhan accept by Allah in a stunning package as a token to enter His exclusive Jannah. May our ocean of sins have forgiven and erased by Allah Al-Afuw. May our prayers and wishes grant by Allah Ar-Razzaq Aamiiin.

Happy Eid Mubarak 1438H ^_^ Kullu ‘aam wa antum bikhayr.

Jazakumullahu khayran kathira for the endless support and bouquet of du’aa, because I can feel it my dearest. Thanks again, only Allah can repay the kindness in you! 

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Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Adapt and Adopt

In the name of Allah as-Salam, al-Mu’min, al-Muhaimin … The Source of Peace, The Inspirer of Faith and The Guardian. Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh my dear all. May Allah have mercy on us, aamiiin.

How’s life? Falling into places or breaking apart. Allahu. Just asking. No matter what occasion occurred in our life, keep the mind at ease because we always bear in mind Allah’s help is near. Be positive even it's easier said than done. 

Hearing a lot of my colleagues tested with illness and bits of problem making me realized; how bless they are by Allah azza wa jalla. He’s putting my colleagues in the state of,

“Ask me anything, I’ll grant you immediately!” SubhanAllah.

My nerves feel the vibe of blessing. Allah do test them, but somehow Allah did place them in such higher level in granting their prayers. MasyaAllah. None forces in this world can beat the power of Allah the All-knowing. May Allah swt keep all Muslims in this world safe and joyful. Aamiiin. Allahumma aamiiin.

ADAPT ... A ‘lil piece of sharing today meant to be taken by adapting towards the situation we’re facing. Well, it might not suitable for certain cases. However, adapting seriously making big changes in me. 

From a so called ‘teacher’ point of views ~

Every single year, adapting to a new batch of student is a must thing to do for me. First things first, the equation that I manage to gather is making steps towards adapting process. 

First month of school is the trivial one. The moment of remembering their names and their perseverance. If the first step taken wrongly, awkward phase will follow upon. Huhu. Breaking the adequate wall between us is a requirement. Don’t be too reserved, open up and they’ll try their best to open more widely.

Second month of school is the fresh one. The phase of drawing the line between ‘yes’ and ‘no’ in a very positive way … till they don’t realize even it’s a ‘no’ because they able to understand the ‘why’ behind. Try it and embrace the fresh ambience!

Third months until forever you know them is amazing. Adapting your needs and tally with their mood. Hey, they are human too. Don’t underestimate your students, they deserve an understanding mode too. Not just you. Hearts linking by the creator of the heart. So, pray to Allah to attach their hearts to yours as it happens, everything can relate just fine. La haula wala quwwata illa billah! Be true to them and to yourself too, they can read you even if you fake it. Beware ;)

From a so called ‘law practitioner’ point of views ~

If a simple session of mediation takes place, the advocate or the solicitor will absolutely use this method. Adapt yourself with your client. For the entire session, only one-third of it they’ll respond. The rest is adapting what to response. We’re not encourage to ask too much nor provoking neither. Adapting to give your eyes to analyze and your mind to brainstorm. Different client need a different style of background case check.

Adapting also giving them space and time to gather the believe in sharing their problems. It’s not a simple thing to do by sharing your problem to someone you don’t even knew before. Let them know, we’re here to understand them and ready to be on behalf someone that deserves the justice.

ADOPT … this word reminds me of a lovely person that keep on picking up the good ones out of the bad things. He’s the one and only; my beloved father.

He’s taking everything rare to a new level. Being born in an east-coast of Malaysia allocate a great challenge in everything including education. Let put it this way. My father’s lineages dislike the English language as this language comes from the native of colonialist to their state. 

Therefore, he learns at ‘pondok’ ever since young and continue his study major in Syariah and also Arabic Language. University syllabus doesn’t stop at syariah subjects only. The English Language also a compulsory. Surprisingly he scored excellent despite the environment of him which is not so encouraging. 

I wonder how he practice that after all? Hehe my amazing father just know how to fix things well, uniquely!

More about him, a figure that I adore much J He’s adopt new challenges that never been arose in his life. And, he did it neatly! What a quality that I adore in a man. 

He’s a man with principles. He’s always has his own way of justifying things. In 2017, he might be called a ‘Perfect 10 Man’ lorh. Hehe. Migrating from a hometown to another with different styles of living, doesn’t stop him from make his friends love him a lot.

A person which is very accurate in saying important things, very substance in enhancing the needs and wants, very soft-hearted and practical too. He’s a perfectionist but not even once making others having trouble to fulfilled his preferences. He adopts the positive vibe and spontaneously inspired others to do so without pressure. 

How I miss him damn much! That’s why Allah swt loves him more J

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So, if you are new in a certain place; take a deep breath … inhale exhale … looks around and suit yourself to adapt and blend in with others without having essence of hypocrisy. A lot of people might be judging and assuming about you. Answer them without words, just act honestly and keep tightly in mind; Allah’s with you! Allah will help you in making them understands you. Believe me, I’ve been there and done that. Hypothesis proven. Hihi. You’re you, don’t change who you are. Let them know the real you, and you’ll be astonished how distinct you’re. Alhamdulillah.

The step you’re taking … please keep on moving. Don’t forget to adopt any positive vibe that fluctuate along the way. It’s a gift from Allah azza wa jalla in making you the greater you in the future. Set your goal bright and persistent. My recipes of prayer that I always shared it with my students are ‘The du’aa should constantly be idealistic, realistic and specific J

Thanks a bunch for stopping by and reading all the way till the end of my ramblings. May Allah grant you the best out of the best within your prayers and grant us Jannah al-Firdaus.  Allahumma aamiiin. Up until we meet again in the next entry, spread love ❤

BarakAllahu lakum jamii’an 

Sunday, April 2, 2017

You're Special ~ Just The Way You're

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. In the name of Allah; al-Fattah, al-Qareeb, al-Wadud … He who Opens All Thing, the Close, the Loving.

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullah, hi there! It’s me again. May Allah swt always protect us from any harm, amiiin.

Hidden and invisible.
Numb and stroppy.
Dull and stale. 

Why all of sudden? Well, me as being ‘the real me’ habitually think sudden things out of nowhere. That bulb which blink in the bright well-lit.

Have you ever felt left out or being isolated all of sudden? Somehow, when you tell other people what you feel, then they will say it’s all about what you assumed. Nonetheless, they think you’re a bit sensitive and easily touched. Huhu. Life circle tend to put us in that situation repeatedly. I’d like to position this thing with two different angles.

Position#1 : YOU as a person who feels the feeling.
Position#2 : YOU as a person who’ve been told about their feeling.

Being in number 1 position ought to make us feels burden inside. Only Allah knows how to explain those feels. Critical to the extend.

Sometimes, you might find yourself at wrong the whole times. No matter how hard you’ve tried your best.

The last choice you had that time is silent and despair. 

Allah, Allah, Allah. Keep on calling His name; so that your heart will be at peace and ease! 

Look for the heal in the Holy Qur’an. Just peek in the book and stop at any pages or aayah. That’s the healing sayings from Allah swt. Give it a try! You won’t regret.

Being in number 2 position keeps you stuck in the middle.

Maybe awkward and hard to find the suitable words to respond. 

Yes. That’s what a reasonable friend should act. Don’t harshly respond nor critics, you’re not at their place.

Allah, Allah, Allah. “He’s always been there for you, my friend. So do I!” Tell them that, so they’ll not feel alone or abandoned. 

Distract the way they think to put their heart at ease.

BY SOME MEANS, everything that always been miserable is the heart. The fragile and tiny one; that can be hardened as rock if you pick the wrong option. Careful my dearest. 

Come to the end of my two cents of sharing and blabbering. Be different and original

Every human being created by Allah azza wa jalla is special in their own way. Bear with the differences in you and be original. That’s what you are! 

Alhamdulillah thummAlhamdulillah.

Look back and say hi to the previous you. 

Tell them, “Be bolder and stronger, you’ll be surprised with what you’ve become now!”

Make the previous you realize, “The best yet to come, just hold on a little bit. You’ll amazed with what Allah has stored and saved for you!”. 

Encourage them to keep on praying and be thankful, “It’s not a waste to be different and original, that’s the point why Allah created us in a different way through a very unique process.”


Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Mashed-up Moments

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim …

In the name of Allah the Most All Knowing, Allah the Most Forgiving and Allah the Most Superior in granting all-prayer. Ramadhan mode is on ~

“Feel free to judge because I feel free in my own skin and be my true self.” 

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wbt, to all my respected silent readers; including ‘you’ that happens to pass-by my blog. Hi there, it’s me again. After first half of this year of 2016 left me far behind, here I’m.

The headline above that I quoted is my own quotation. Define me as myself. Being me, letting me be in thinking mode endlessly. I hold tight with this aayah from Allah’s love letter;

1. Verse 21 Surah al-Hasyr,

“If We had sent down this Qur’an upon a mountain, you would have seen it humbled and coming apart from fear of Allah. And these examples We present to the people that perhaps they will give thought.”

2. Verse 24 Surah Yunus,

“The example of (this) worldly life is but like rain which We have sent down from the sky that the plants of earth absorb – (those) from which men and livestock eat – until, when the earth has taken on its adornment and is beautified and its people suppose that they have capability over it, there comes to it Our command by night or by day, and We make it as a harvest, as if it had not flourished yesterday. Thus do We explain in detail the signs for a people who give thought.”

3. Verse 13 Surah al-Jaathiyah,

“And He has subjected to you whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on earth – all from Him. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.”

4. Verse 21 Surah ar-Rum,

“And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquility in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.”

How beautiful those verses send by Allah to us as a little caliph in this gigantic world. The reminder of what we need to carry out, till the end of this dunya. Nonetheless as a normal human, we tend to forget and take all these things for granted. ‘My thinking mode’ flashing back to the time where I found my TRUE love. Since this is the month of Ramadhan, it always keeps my remembrance back to where I used to rejoice serenity and tranquility.

A place that makes my heart falls billion times. A place that makes my soul soothe the whole times. A place which I meet my TRUE love. Yes, at the first sight. Allahu akbar!

2006 starts it all. The sweetness of the love keeps on nurturing, the passion keeps on growing, and the faith keep on expanding. Allah’s love will always be amazing! Masya Allah. Even it’s kind of too late to realize, its better be late than never. Alhamdulillah.

Back to present time, I’m asking myself. Am I still the same girl that naively falling in love as 10 years ago? The ‘No’ answers surely in partially quite upset me to grasp. I feel like developing and growing in life does makes me lost myself as a girl that at all times bear in mind, 

“Anything that happens, Allah’s always with me.”  

It’s not that I’m not feeling the same way now, but the tightness and longing seems breed altogether with me. Allah, may Allah have mercy on me.

Apology asked if you can’t manage to understand my ramblings and inner-self war. Being the real me tend to make certain number of people to misunderstood. Na’uzubillahi min dzalik. Come to think of it, being in quite a crowd of different arenas does groom me as me.

How others feel when they’re facing me tells me what kind of superficial expression for me to react. I don’t believe in hypocrisy, and I’m not part of it. Well, my mind still can stimulate fine. So, don’t worry of any bad words from me because I’ll not say anything you don’t want to hear if you’re not provoking me. In sha Allah!

Jump back to my couple of years in motivational consultant and event management team. The term may look majestic but it’s not seems as it looks. Being in this arena for the sake of helping the ummah and not the money, received splendid tests by my TRUE LOVE. Furthermore, that moment all of us were in the middle of saving up for furthering studies and life. Allah does provide us the rizq that can’t be value by money ~ the heart content and the smile on ‘their faces’ at the very end in each programme. Allahu, those are the best!

The years may be pretty short but the charm of struggles each day we’re together is all-embracing and priceless! La haula wala quwwata illa billah. I miss you guys (and girls of course). May Allah expand your life with happiness and mardhatillah. Aamiiin. 

WATCH OUT! This entry seems going to be long. In case you’re not ready to neither read nor understand, I’d say “Till we meet again.” Hehe :)

So, how’s life? Quiet for six months and suddenly popped up out of the blue. Hihi. ‘Enjoying mode’ is on.

Life’s good thanks to Allah, even there’s so many things messing up the schedule; it is good though. Life is a drama after-all. Heh.

Slighter than that, it’s real-life novels still. Since my life does messing up somehow, I will look for my vaccination in my earlier life; the arena of a writer. That’s what some so called ‘fans’ address me, back on 2003. Hihi. What an exquisite moment I’ve been into. The age of early e-novel just started. The age of dial-up connection of internet merely introduced. Beyond description! SubhanAllah.  

The vaccination of a writer lies in the response of the reader. Back then, the readers are welcomed to send e-mails to their favorite writer. No judgments because it’s normal. They also can hope the writers to reply the mails too because they DO. No need to be fake nor insecure. The worlds just fine and safe back then. Thanks a bunch to them. We’ve been friend ever since without boundaries of who were we. Lovely right?

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“Life is an Open Secret – Sis Zabrina said.”

Yes. My life may not have seen as clearly to be seen but somehow it’s began to turn into an open secret when I began to open up and share things and whatnot to you, my beloved readers. Well, why am I disabling the stats and all sorts of Google tracing engine as known as Google plus app? It’s pretty simple to understand. My sharing is intended for those who are searching for it. So, don’t trap yourself here if you’re not ready to read or be positive while read it. Gotcha! 

Sharing in real life sometimes does trigger your feeling in showing off as others who’s listening, might know you. Come to think of it, here, in this kind of platform … you happen to know me as someone random out there, which doesn’t have any personal interest to impress you. There you are, my entry continues in inconsequential and tossing here and there. Apologize asked. That does explain how jump start inside my mind could go. It’s quite miserable.

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Month of September ~

In the name of Allah the Most All Knowing, Allah the Most Forgiving and Allah the Most Superior in granting all-prayer.

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wbt, to all my respected silent readers; including ‘you’ that happens to pass-by my blog.

Hi there, it’s me again. After nine months of this year of 2016 left me far behind, here I’m. Running my job and running my life in the actual meaning of running. Allahu. Nine months may seem a happy and rejoice moments for a pregnant woman. Waiting impatiently for the baby to came out and say hello to the new world. Somehow, I’m not a pregnant woman to eagerly impatient for something. Just a normal and random plain-jane who’s enjoying the stress in life every single day.

Wah, what’s an entry yeah. The entry which posted is the best among the best after several attempts to post something. Writing an entry sometimes ought to be in a condition of suitable before and irrelevance now. Well, time flies, people changes, our mind transits. That’s how life’s work, am I right?

Where I’ve been all this while? Following what’s trending. Yes, being a teacher urge me to throw myself in other field where I’m not completely belong. To know what’s my students into, I’ve to keep on try an error myself to flushed myself ‘there’. A young and brand new world! O child, here am I joining your brand new era. Please assist me, will you? :)