Sunday, April 2, 2017

You're Special ~ Just The Way You're




Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. In the name of Allah; al-Fattah, al-Qareeb, al-Wadud … He who Opens All Thing, the Close, the Loving.


Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullah, hi there! It’s me again. May Allah swt always protect us from any harm, amiiin.

Hidden and invisible.
Numb and stroppy.
Dull and stale. 



Why all of sudden? Well, me as being ‘the real me’ habitually think sudden things out of nowhere. That bulb which blink in the bright well-lit.


Have you ever felt left out or being isolated all of sudden? Somehow, when you tell other people what you feel, then they will say it’s all about what you assumed. Nonetheless, they think you’re a bit sensitive and easily touched. Huhu. Life circle tend to put us in that situation repeatedly. I’d like to position this thing with two different angles.


Position#1 : YOU as a person who feels the feeling.
Position#2 : YOU as a person who’ve been told about their feeling.


Being in number 1 position ought to make us feels burden inside. Only Allah knows how to explain those feels. Critical to the extend.

Sometimes, you might find yourself at wrong the whole times. No matter how hard you’ve tried your best.




The last choice you had that time is silent and despair. 




Allah, Allah, Allah. Keep on calling His name; so that your heart will be at peace and ease! 

Look for the heal in the Holy Qur’an. Just peek in the book and stop at any pages or aayah. That’s the healing sayings from Allah swt. Give it a try! You won’t regret.





Being in number 2 position keeps you stuck in the middle.

Maybe awkward and hard to find the suitable words to respond. 




Yes. That’s what a reasonable friend should act. Don’t harshly respond nor critics, you’re not at their place.

Allah, Allah, Allah. “He’s always been there for you, my friend. So do I!” Tell them that, so they’ll not feel alone or abandoned. 




Distract the way they think to put their heart at ease.


BY SOME MEANS, everything that always been miserable is the heart. The fragile and tiny one; that can be hardened as rock if you pick the wrong option. Careful my dearest. 





Come to the end of my two cents of sharing and blabbering. Be different and original




Every human being created by Allah azza wa jalla is special in their own way. Bear with the differences in you and be original. That’s what you are! 

Alhamdulillah thummAlhamdulillah.


Look back and say hi to the previous you. 




Tell them, “Be bolder and stronger, you’ll be surprised with what you’ve become now!”




Make the previous you realize, “The best yet to come, just hold on a little bit. You’ll amazed with what Allah has stored and saved for you!”. 




Encourage them to keep on praying and be thankful, “It’s not a waste to be different and original, that’s the point why Allah created us in a different way through a very unique process.”



#sharingismyultimatemagicpotion 
#spreadinglove
#mayAllahblessyou 





Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Mashed-up Moments






Bismillahirrahmanirrahim …



In the name of Allah the Most All Knowing, Allah the Most Forgiving and Allah the Most Superior in granting all-prayer. Ramadhan mode is on ~


“Feel free to judge because I feel free in my own skin and be my true self.” 




Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wbt, to all my respected silent readers; including ‘you’ that happens to pass-by my blog. Hi there, it’s me again. After first half of this year of 2016 left me far behind, here I’m.



The headline above that I quoted is my own quotation. Define me as myself. Being me, letting me be in thinking mode endlessly. I hold tight with this aayah from Allah’s love letter;




1. Verse 21 Surah al-Hasyr,


“If We had sent down this Qur’an upon a mountain, you would have seen it humbled and coming apart from fear of Allah. And these examples We present to the people that perhaps they will give thought.”


2. Verse 24 Surah Yunus,


“The example of (this) worldly life is but like rain which We have sent down from the sky that the plants of earth absorb – (those) from which men and livestock eat – until, when the earth has taken on its adornment and is beautified and its people suppose that they have capability over it, there comes to it Our command by night or by day, and We make it as a harvest, as if it had not flourished yesterday. Thus do We explain in detail the signs for a people who give thought.”


3. Verse 13 Surah al-Jaathiyah,


“And He has subjected to you whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on earth – all from Him. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.”



4. Verse 21 Surah ar-Rum,

“And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquility in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.”





How beautiful those verses send by Allah to us as a little caliph in this gigantic world. The reminder of what we need to carry out, till the end of this dunya. Nonetheless as a normal human, we tend to forget and take all these things for granted. ‘My thinking mode’ flashing back to the time where I found my TRUE love. Since this is the month of Ramadhan, it always keeps my remembrance back to where I used to rejoice serenity and tranquility.


A place that makes my heart falls billion times. A place that makes my soul soothe the whole times. A place which I meet my TRUE love. Yes, at the first sight. Allahu akbar!





2006 starts it all. The sweetness of the love keeps on nurturing, the passion keeps on growing, and the faith keep on expanding. Allah’s love will always be amazing! Masya Allah. Even it’s kind of too late to realize, its better be late than never. Alhamdulillah.


Back to present time, I’m asking myself. Am I still the same girl that naively falling in love as 10 years ago? The ‘No’ answers surely in partially quite upset me to grasp. I feel like developing and growing in life does makes me lost myself as a girl that at all times bear in mind, 

“Anything that happens, Allah’s always with me.”  



It’s not that I’m not feeling the same way now, but the tightness and longing seems breed altogether with me. Allah, may Allah have mercy on me.


Apology asked if you can’t manage to understand my ramblings and inner-self war. Being the real me tend to make certain number of people to misunderstood. Na’uzubillahi min dzalik. Come to think of it, being in quite a crowd of different arenas does groom me as me.



How others feel when they’re facing me tells me what kind of superficial expression for me to react. I don’t believe in hypocrisy, and I’m not part of it. Well, my mind still can stimulate fine. So, don’t worry of any bad words from me because I’ll not say anything you don’t want to hear if you’re not provoking me. In sha Allah!


Jump back to my couple of years in motivational consultant and event management team. The term may look majestic but it’s not seems as it looks. Being in this arena for the sake of helping the ummah and not the money, received splendid tests by my TRUE LOVE. Furthermore, that moment all of us were in the middle of saving up for furthering studies and life. Allah does provide us the rizq that can’t be value by money ~ the heart content and the smile on ‘their faces’ at the very end in each programme. Allahu, those are the best!



The years may be pretty short but the charm of struggles each day we’re together is all-embracing and priceless! La haula wala quwwata illa billah. I miss you guys (and girls of course). May Allah expand your life with happiness and mardhatillah. Aamiiin. 


WATCH OUT! This entry seems going to be long. In case you’re not ready to neither read nor understand, I’d say “Till we meet again.” Hehe :)





So, how’s life? Quiet for six months and suddenly popped up out of the blue. Hihi. ‘Enjoying mode’ is on.


Life’s good thanks to Allah, even there’s so many things messing up the schedule; it is good though. Life is a drama after-all. Heh.



Slighter than that, it’s real-life novels still. Since my life does messing up somehow, I will look for my vaccination in my earlier life; the arena of a writer. That’s what some so called ‘fans’ address me, back on 2003. Hihi. What an exquisite moment I’ve been into. The age of early e-novel just started. The age of dial-up connection of internet merely introduced. Beyond description! SubhanAllah.  


The vaccination of a writer lies in the response of the reader. Back then, the readers are welcomed to send e-mails to their favorite writer. No judgments because it’s normal. They also can hope the writers to reply the mails too because they DO. No need to be fake nor insecure. The worlds just fine and safe back then. Thanks a bunch to them. We’ve been friend ever since without boundaries of who were we. Lovely right?



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“Life is an Open Secret – Sis Zabrina said.”

Yes. My life may not have seen as clearly to be seen but somehow it’s began to turn into an open secret when I began to open up and share things and whatnot to you, my beloved readers. Well, why am I disabling the stats and all sorts of Google tracing engine as known as Google plus app? It’s pretty simple to understand. My sharing is intended for those who are searching for it. So, don’t trap yourself here if you’re not ready to read or be positive while read it. Gotcha! 





Sharing in real life sometimes does trigger your feeling in showing off as others who’s listening, might know you. Come to think of it, here, in this kind of platform … you happen to know me as someone random out there, which doesn’t have any personal interest to impress you. There you are, my entry continues in inconsequential and tossing here and there. Apologize asked. That does explain how jump start inside my mind could go. It’s quite miserable.


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Month of September ~


In the name of Allah the Most All Knowing, Allah the Most Forgiving and Allah the Most Superior in granting all-prayer.


Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wbt, to all my respected silent readers; including ‘you’ that happens to pass-by my blog.




Hi there, it’s me again. After nine months of this year of 2016 left me far behind, here I’m. Running my job and running my life in the actual meaning of running. Allahu. Nine months may seem a happy and rejoice moments for a pregnant woman. Waiting impatiently for the baby to came out and say hello to the new world. Somehow, I’m not a pregnant woman to eagerly impatient for something. Just a normal and random plain-jane who’s enjoying the stress in life every single day.



Wah, what’s an entry yeah. The entry which posted is the best among the best after several attempts to post something. Writing an entry sometimes ought to be in a condition of suitable before and irrelevance now. Well, time flies, people changes, our mind transits. That’s how life’s work, am I right?




Where I’ve been all this while? Following what’s trending. Yes, being a teacher urge me to throw myself in other field where I’m not completely belong. To know what’s my students into, I’ve to keep on try an error myself to flushed myself ‘there’. A young and brand new world! O child, here am I joining your brand new era. Please assist me, will you? :) 





Saturday, December 26, 2015

Plain Jane ~ Full of Imperfections





BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM 


In the name of the Most Graceful and Most Understanding, Allah SWT. 


How are you my dearest and respective blog reader? May all of you shower by Allah with lots of joy and happiness within the baraqah that embracing the life which live to the fullest. 



Before I started further upon, a bunch of sorry asked for my bad and odd phrasing in every sentences structure. Been awhile gaping my life with this kind of personal preferences. I guess this entry is my eleventh (or more than that) attempt in sharing with all of you guys (girls). My bad though :) 



Where do I start? It’s pretty awkward and numb here and there. Well I guess it’s time now to open up a little bit more of who I am now; to keep on inspire and of course to ask good du’aa from all of you. 



Still remember the entry about my awesome colleagues and generous boss? Well, that’s previously back in few months of year 2012. Yet, they’re still my best working colleagues I’ve ever had! Alhamdulillah. 



Want to know what is my job scope there? Hehe. As a normal ‘Pembantu Am Rendah’ in a HQ of clothes factory (producing shirts, kurungs, scarves, man head gear, school uniforms and etc); yup, definitely I’m a so called tailor cum helper and not to be missed appointed in handling factory sewing machines including button-hole creator, button self-sew machine which I’ve never attach with before. SubhanAllah!



Going through several types of absolutely different fields of job makes me feels full of gratitude to Allah the Almighty. Who am I to predict those happen in my Plain Jane’s life? 


MasyaAllah, Alhamdulillah thummAlhamdulillah. 



For a Diploma and Degree holder in Syariah with Law sometimes guard me to stop and just stare at other kind of jobs that particularly way far than this field; but, somehow I end up not just stare, however, BEEN there! Allahuakbar! 



Then, continuing the miracles that invite me in; once again I’ve been accepted as a one year contract teacher in private Islamic secondary school near my hometown starting middle of December 2012. Allahuakbar! Alhamdulillah! Then, my contract has been extended for another six months to pair up with other new contract teachers before going through another interview for official post permanently. 



Am I still there? InsyaAllah, Alhamdulillah I’m still there as a teacher :) that learns a lot from my dearest students! If Allah’s will, 2016 will be my fourth year, there. Thanks to Allah that planned everything so well, as I’m never know what future might hold. 


My life was full of ups and down, chaotic and bless, intricate and smooth, sad and joy too. 


Well, I as a Plain Jane surely not excluded from those moments to occur in life. The peak of my life and my other family members’ life is losing one of my beloved elder brothers by end of November 2014. Yeah, the one that I frequently slipped in my entries on http://www.goldtinted.webs.com



In order to gather the strength that suddenly flew away was never easy. If only I can put that in proper words, I would pick these sentence to enlighten; 



‘Everything seems like a dream that happen in awake, it feels like happen yesterday and always remembered in every inches of my life.’


Allah, Allah, Allah. 


Al-Fatihah to him. Allahummaghfirlahu warhamhu wa’afihi wa’fu ‘anhu. 


Ever since that, my life completely changes. My priorities also change. My schedules also change. 



“Be strong in order to spread the strength.” 



Yes, that’s began my motto of life. Because I’ve always believe that Allah never gives the test that I couldn’t bear even though I highly doubt my own self at first. Alhamdulillah. Allah never once let me down, never let go of me, never apart from me. Thank you Allah for always had been there for me! Life of a Plain Jane tested, nonetheless, new lesson learned every single day, new skilled discovered day by day. Alhamdulillah. 



Its miracle when you believe! Yes, enormously miracles! Allah the Pacifier, always offers the greatest out of the best. When I was knocked down, He picked me up gently. When I completely accepting whole heartedly the test He sent, He swift the test with a wonderful gift I’ve never thought I’d accept anytime soon. Allahu. 



The same date as my brother passed away in 2014, 23rd of November this year; I’ve been accepted as one of certified Syar’ie Lawyer in state of Kelantan. SubhanAllah! As my long-lost dream come true, masyaAllah. Alhamdulillah. 



Dearly my blog readers (if there’s anyone, hihi), nothing in this world is impossible as Allah always make them possible. Keep on praying, du’aa, and having faith with patience. 



Not to be forgotten, first and foremost; thanks to all of my family members that support me from the start especially my lovely mother that approved the suggestion of sending my CV and certificates weeks before they called for interviewed. Secondly, thanks for my dearest friends that be together in the moment of thrill (you know who you are ^^, the three of you). Thanks a million for busy preparing all kind of great facilities during my previous stay at Kelantan for 3 days 2 nights. May Allah repay your genuine hard work and ease all your day ahead aamiiin~ 



My life circle is more than just works. I may be sharing about it, only to inspire part of your life needs as a Muslim which works is part of ibadah (obligation) that collected an amount of virtue for life in hereafter. 



So, in case somebody guessing if I might stop working (literally) in order to focus in something worth it? My answer: I WILL insyaAllah! As for me anything in life is seriously flexible. If Allah wills it to be like that, then it should be like that :) 



Anyhow, everything is amanah (responsibility) right? 

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Memories and Imaginations


BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM 


Kata-kata yang indah itu sukar diterjemahkan melalui bait-bait yang utuh bagi memaksudkannya. Apa yang sering terjadi tatkala hal yang indah itu berlaku hanyalah senyuman yang berpanjangan, perasaan itu seolah-olah senyuman lebar telah terukir di dalam diri. SubhanAllah. Itulah keindahan segenap rasa yang dikurniakan oleh Allah s.w.t Pemilik Seluruh Rasa yang ada di muka bumi ini.


Mengapa manusia sering mengingati kenangan dan mengimpikan anganan yang belum terjadi?


Lazimnya jika soalan ini dihalakan kepadaku, jujur jawabannya adalah kerana keindahan yang terlakar di ruang minda. Kenangan yang suka untuk kita ingati pasti yang membuatkan senyuman terukir tanpa kita sedari. Manakala, anganan yang kita senang untuk mengimpikan adalah sebuah gambaran yang gembira untuk kita imaginasikan.


Akal warasku ini bermuhasabah; mengapa tidak ku rubah kedua-duanya (kenangan yang indah dan anganan yang gembira) itu kepada lontaran rasa syukur dan doa yang berpanjangan?


MasyaAllah. Diriku terkhilaf lagi. Andai ku ubah ingatan yang sia-sia kepada panjat syukur tanpa henti, sekurang-kurangnya diriku berusaha menjadi hambaNya yang bersyukur. Alhamdulillah ... Tatkala kurafa’kan doa munajat terhadap keinginan anganku ingin melihat imaginasi yang indah itu sebagai kenyataan, pasti Allah tidak membiarkan permohonan dan hajatku itu sia-sia. Astaghfirullahal’adzim ...


Jom kita cipta kenangan indah untuk kita kenangkan dengan berdoa agar impian kita seindah anganan yang kita imaginasikan! Ya, kita boleh mengubah kenangan pahit dan kita boleh mencipta kenangan manis J Malah lebih banyak daripada apa yang kita jangkakan. Itulah kehebatan dan magisnya doa yakni senjata setiap yang bergelar Muslim. Allahuakbar!


Kenangan untuk dikenang dan imaginasi untuk diimpikan.


-translation-

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.


Those beautiful words hardly explain in specific words to enlighten about it. The common things that happen occasionally when beautiful moments take place only smiling faces till the end; it’s somehow like the feeling of grinning inside. Glory be to Allah. That’s the beauty of entire feels that grant by Allah; the owner of all kind of feels in this entire universe.


Why do people tend to recall the memories and dreaming of expectation which barely happen?


Basically, if this question ever asked to me, honestly my answer would be because of the beauty that craved in our conscious mind. The favorites memory for us to recall positively will be something that able to make our lips curl into unnoticeable smiles. Whereas, dreams that easily popped-up will be a picture that manage to makes us happy just by imagining.


My conscious mind calculating; why don’t I turn both (the beautiful memories and happy dreams) of them into act of thankfulness and never-ending prayers (du’aa)?

Allah, the Almighty. My own self, again, in wrong-turn. If only I transform those baseless recalls into countless feeling of gratitude, at least, I’m trying my best to be one of His thankful worshippers. Thanks to Allah. Whenever I gather my hand (in order to recite prayers) to asked You my full of wants in my dreams to be able to see my beautiful imagination as reality, for sure Allah which is You will never set aside my supplication and needs as a waste. I seek forgiveness from Allah ...


Come, let us create beautiful moments to recall one day soon with prayers (du’aa) just like in our imagination we dreams of! Yes, we can change the bitter past and create new beautiful one J In addition more than what we’ve expected. That’s the greatness and the magical of du’aa which is known as weapon for each person who led their life as a Muslim. Allah is Greater!




Memory to recall and imaginations to dream of.  


p/s: Thanks a bunch to you (you knew who you're, right?). May Allah bless all of you with His pure love and forgiveness. This is a kick-start and come-back entry for me in another phase of life  to be share with you, fellas ... insyaAllah. Just like previous me, hehe do mail me and response to what I'm blabbering about. I'd love to know your point of view too :) Well, sharing is caring and loving, though! Much loves. 



Sunday, July 14, 2013

Peace . Smile . Love



Bismillahirrahmanirrahim … Ramadhan Kareem to all Muslim in this entire universe :)



Month of Ramadhan, a month that I adore much, a month that always put my heart at ease, a month that used to carved special memories in my leaf of life :) SubhanAllah. Thank you Allah; in giving me another chance, to sip the sweetness of YOUR baraqah month! Alhamdulillah.



I’m not sure todays entry will end up fine or mess up. My feelings right now mix up and blend undescribably. MasyaAllah. I guess it is too personal and only Allah knows what’s the fine reason behinds.



يَا مُقَلِّبَ الْقُلُوبِ ثَبِّتْ قَلْبِى عَلَى دِينِكَ

“Oh Turner of the Hearts, makes my heart firm on Your Deen.”



My dear friends, my dear blog visitors, my dear Muslim friends and my all respected person alive … please pray some du’aa for me as I’m in needed the du’aa from all of you.





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Laugh is the sun that drives the winter from the human faces :)



Yes, I second this brilliant quotation! In particular term, I prefer to bestow thousand of smiles when my heart silences the mouth in uttering appropriate words. Let us think what or who always make you smile instantaneously; even when your eyes teary wet? My answer would be kids and my picture of me with my dad :) Hehe.



The second answer is a well-known one. However, the first one comes like forever. When my nieces and nephew still kids and babies, I used to hugs and kisses them to my heart content. Hihi. They’re such adorable creatures and ‘little angels’ sent by Allah! To being close to them is like being close to Allah’s heaven. The calmness and peacefulness flow through them is like blood in my vessels; it’s unstoppable.



‘The puss in the boat’ face they made while asking something they want always cracks my laugh. Such an innocence face that’ll be a denial to reject. Hehe. Nakal tapi comel. What more can I say ;)



Oh, I missed that moment when they’re still small and saying unpredictable words in expressing their thoughts. The way they’re into something that catch their attention especially when they see me preparing their meals or baking cakes or the simplest dadih which they aim so bad :)) Hihi.



My sayang; dearest little angels, your auntie is missing the three of you so much! May Allah protect all of you from any harm and keep you soleh solehah during your upbringing aamiiin ~

 
Raising children is like chewing on a stone - Arabic proverb. 



InsyaAllah my sayang wouldn’t be as hard as the stone to be chewed :)



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Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness - Oliver Wendell Holmes.



Why all of sudden I’m stating about love? LOVE IS IN THE AIR to whom? I’m sure it’s for my lovely family and Allah the Greatest … and not to be forgotten; to the special someone that I barely know who.



It seems too personal to open up like this. Nonetheless, all this while I hung up the hope and trust only to Allah. The trials and turbulences do come and go. My heart also sinks a few times but I still I’m as others know me :) Just, for this time I do pray to HIM to tighten ‘the holds on me’, so that I’d not fall upon my face. Na’uzubillahi min dzalik :(



Oh Allah, I beg YOU to protect me from being part of the fitn in this world and I beg to YOU to keep my heart well at its place to whom YOU set for. InsyaAllah ~ seriously, it’s like my post today come very clean and clear.



Last but not least, just a little piece of sharing to an achiever out there. Let’s be an achiever starting in this month of Ramadhan insyaAllah ~ sure will be a good start. Yeah!



“To the achievers; they never put on a scale to how much they have achieved but, what they ponder upon the most is how far an effort they have made does affect the whole process.”